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September 1, 1939: A Biography of a Poem. Ian SansomЧитать онлайн книгу.

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      One might, I suppose, console oneself with the knowledge that even some of Auden’s books were not entirely successful: Academic Graffiti, City Without Walls.

      But to dwell on the minor faults and failings of the great is hardly a comfort.

      It is merely another sign of one’s own inadequacies.

      The greater the equality of opportunity in a society becomes, the more obvious becomes the inequality of the talent and character among individuals, and the more bitter and personal it must be to fail, particularly for those who have some talent but not enough to win them second or third place.

      (Auden, ‘West’s Disease’)

      But surely – surely? – literature is not a competition. Literature is not a sport. One cannot measure oneself by the usual standards of success.

      (Auden, ‘Red Ribbon on a White Horse’)

      Let’s not kid ourselves.

      It is a competition.

      It is a sport.

      One does measure oneself by the usual standards of success.

      When writing about any great writer – or indeed about anyone who has achieved great things – one can’t help but compare oneself.

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      If Philip Larkin was no more than a five-finger exercise compared to Auden, then this – this! – is, what? At the very best, a one-note tribute?

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      Polyphony

      ↓

      Monophony

      ↓

      Penny whistle and kazoo

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      Parnassus after all is not a mountain,

      Reserved for A.1. climbers such as you;

      It’s got a park, it’s got a public fountain.

      The most I ask is leave to share a pew

      With Bradford or with Cottam, that will do.

      (Auden, ‘Letter to Lord Byron’)

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      Fountain?

      Pissoir.

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      Perhaps one of the only things the rest of us share with the truly great writers is the sense of struggle, the sense of inadequacy.

      Flaubert: ‘Sometimes when I find myself empty, when the expression refuses to come, when, after having scrawled long pages, I discover that I have not written one sentence, I fall on my couch and remain stupefied in an internal swamp of ennuis.’

      Gerard Manley Hopkins: ‘Birds build – but not I build; no, but strain, / Time’s eunuch, and not breed one work that wakes.’

      Katherine Mansfield: ‘For the last two weeks I have written scarcely anything. I have been idle; I have failed.’

      We all know that feeling, that sense of despair and woe-is-me and all-I-taste-is-ashes, and all-I-touch-has-turned-to-dust.

      Great writers, it seems, are not necessarily those who are most confident about their own capacities or skills. They are more often keenly aware that words are failing them, and that they are failing words. Like us, they find it difficult.

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      Or rather, most of them find it difficult: Auden was convinced of his own skills and capacities from an early age and went on to fulfil and exceed his early promise.

      (His tutor at Oxford, Nevill Coghill, recalled Auden announcing his intention to become a poet. Jolly good, said Coghill – or something donnish to that effect – that should help with understanding the old technical side of Eng. Lit., eh, old chap? ‘Oh no, you don’t understand,’ replied Auden – or again, words to that effect – ‘I mean a great poet.’)

      ‘Evidently they are waiting for Someone,’ he told his friend Stephen Spender.

      He was that Someone.

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      And me, who am I?

      If nothing else, one of the things I have realised over the course of the past twenty-five years, in trying to write a book about W. H. Auden, is the obvious fact that I AM NOT W. H. AUDEN.

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      Other people realise they’re not their heroes much earlier, but I was in the slow learners’ class in school and seem to be a slow learner still.

      I think I probably believed that one day – through sheer willpower and determined slog, through dogged persistence and self-discipline – I might somehow overcome my weaknesses and become an artist of some significance.

      It is only recently that I have come to accept my true role and status, which is, obviously, naturally, inevitably, as an utterly insignificant bit-part player in the world of literary affairs.

      This is the real trouble with studying major writers: it reminds one of one’s minority status.

      (Great Lies of Literature No. 1: reading great literature is good for the soul. The truth: reading the greats does not just uplift; it also casts down.)

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