The Family Way. Tony ParsonsЧитать онлайн книгу.
fill the little plastic jug.’
But just like any other exam, a sperm test came with the promise of either success or failure. Or it wouldn’t be a test, would it?
So Paulo prepared. But instead of practising three-point turns or studying the Highway Code, he did everything to increase the number of potential lives swimming about inside him, and everything he could to ensure that they would be heading in vaguely the right direction.
Loose pants. Cold baths. Zinc, vitamin E and selenium, all purchased in health shops where both the staff and the clientele looked uniformly and spectacularly unhealthy.
He read all the literature. And there was an amazing amount of it. The human race was forgetting how to reproduce itself. Tap in ‘sperm’ on the search engine, and you almost drowned in the stuff.
The vitamin pills, the roomy pants, the nut-shrinking cold baths – apparently all these were good for the number of sperm, and their motility – their ability to wiggle around in the required fashion. But what was the pass mark? How many million did you need to get the nod?
Surely, Paulo thought, when the sperm hits the egg, all you really need is one?
The examination room was the toilet in an NHS hospital. Paulo had heard rumours that if you had your sperm test done in Harley Street, your wife was allowed to go in there with you and give you a hand.
But in this sprawling NHS hospital, which felt more like some untamed frontier town than a place of healing, where cancer patients in their dressing gowns hungrily sucked cigarettes outside the main reception, and tattooed men with head wounds regularly attacked the young nurses who were caring for them for not caring quite quickly enough, you just went in the toilets and made sad love to your little plastic jug.
And yet the event seemed momentous to Paulo. This was something new. This was masturbation for some greater good. After years of doing it behind locked doors – and how he recalled the shame and the fear that his parents would catch him red-handed emerging from the bathroom with a copy of a Sunday paper stuffed down his shirt – he was actually being encouraged to strangle the one-eyed trouser snake, choke the monkey and beat the meat. The world was saying, go ahead, Paulo. Wank yourself stupid.
There was a list of instructions – as if any man needed advice on how to fiddle about with himself – but basically it was just you, your jug, and some pornography, provided by the state.
So much was riding on this ridiculous act. It didn’t feel like his sperm they were testing. It felt like his future, and the future he might have with Jessica. He unzipped his trousers, then immediately zipped them up again, taking deep breaths.
He had it easy. He knew that. He had to ejaculate into a little plastic jug, and he was allowed to do it in the privacy of an NHS toilet. Jessica had had so many examinations that she said she felt like her private parts were now in the public domain.
All these tests, all these judgements – as if it wasn’t up to them if they loved each other, but to some much higher power, ancient and cruel.
Paulo flicked through the pages of Fifty Plus. He hadn’t seen any of this stuff for years. At school, there was a boy known as Spud Face, a cackling, habitual masturbator – thick specs, red cheeks, always giggling inanely by the corner flag during games – who had regularly brought to class what he pronounced ‘good wank fodder’.
Paulo, a shy, thoughtful boy who preferred magazines featuring motors, had always stayed at his desk, reading the latest edition of Car. But one day Spud Face had called Paulo across to the leering, cheering mob that always surrounded his dirty magazines during break.
‘Oy, Baresi, come and look at this, you big poof. Here’s something you can’t get from cars.’
Paulo had caught a glimpse of the magazine and almost fainted – a bearded Asian man with no clothes on was doing something unbelievable to a goat who clearly couldn’t believe his luck. While all the other goats in the neighbourhood were no doubt being beaten and mistreated, this goat was getting a blow job. That goat must have felt like he had won the goat lottery.
It was enough pornography to last Paulo a lifetime. He didn’t like it then, and he didn’t like it now. There was just something a bit too gynaecological about it for his straightforward tastes.
Paulo closed his copy of Fifty Plus. Although he felt like he was semi-retired from his sex life – making love and making babies were clearly two very different things – the women in Fifty Plus did not remotely stir him.
Paulo closed his eyes. He got a grip of himself. And he thought about his wife.
Which made him a different man to all the other wankers in there.
The way Megan found out that her boyfriend was sleeping with somebody else was that she caught him with his hand on her arse. And Megan couldn’t say that he looked exactly unfamiliar with the territory.
Will and Katie were on the up escalator at Selfridges just as Megan was coming down – perfectly placed for a view of Will’s hand casually exploring the valley of the little tart’s bottom. Katie had the decency to gasp when she saw Megan. Will went white, his hand frozen on Katie’s rear, like someone caught with his fingers in the till.
Megan thought, what am I going to do? I just lost my best friend.
‘A woman’s biological destiny is to have a baby,’ Will said. ‘A man’s biological destiny is to plant his seed in as many women as he can. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love you.’
This is what he told her. He told her all the other stuff too – that it didn’t mean a thing, that he loved her, that they had been together for too long to chuck it away because of one mistake. And they had been together for a long time. Megan and Will had been med school sweethearts, living together when most of their contemporaries were playing doctors and nurses at every opportunity. But what it came down to in the end was that he had slept with Katie because the survival of the human race depended upon it.
‘What can I do? I’m programmed to spread my seed. It’s the biological imperative.’
‘That’s on your hard drive, is it? Sticking your miserable dick in strangers?’
‘Katie’s hardly a stranger. You’ve known her since med school.’
‘She was a slapper there, too. Plenty of junior doctors did their advanced biology on Katie.’
‘We grew very close working in accident and emergency at the Homerton. These things happen. You get thrown together.’
‘You mean – oh, no, I’ve slipped! And now my penis has got stuck in Katie! How on earth did this happen? Is that what you mean, you rotten bastard?’
Megan thought that she should have expected something like this. She had noticed a sudden decline in Will’s sex drive when he was doing those six months’ vocational training at the Homerton, while she was off doing her six months’ VTS in paediatrics at the Royal Free.
She had put it down to Will witnessing stab wounds on a regular basis, for the Homerton is in Hackney, and their A & E is busy every night of the year. Now Megan felt she should have guessed that Katie was wagging her tail in the doctors’ mess during tea break. One of the first things that every medical student learns is that the average hospital has the sexual mores of a knocking shop when the fleet’s in. All those extremely young doctors and nurses working all hours of the day and night in a highly stressed environment, most of them too busy for a proper relationship – it did something to the hormones.
As part of her vocational training, Megan had done six months at the Homerton’s A & E herself, and it had done nothing for her libido. She had felt as though she was seeing the world as it really was for the first time in her life. But perhaps she had more imagination than Will and Katie.
He attempted to put his arms around her but she shrugged him