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absent mother, Martha Mae, opened her
in sympathy to the sorrows of others and she was robust
and happy and she wanted to bring others into her graced joy.
Already in the womb mother identified with the very feelings,
moods and attitude of her upbeat, strong, pioneering mother.
The very hormones and nervous system of Leona Mae
were identified with by Joneva Mae as the mother’s blood
and lymph system and mucosity became also the daughter’s.
Leona Mae’s preconscious feelings and passions and moods
and her unconscious attitude which evaluated and motivated
all of her conscious thoughts, words and deeds became also
the very fabric of little Joneva Mae and when she was born
and nursed through that first year at her mother’s breast
they bonded in a special dream and vision that would let
little Joneva Mae live out the life that Martha Mae lost.
Martha Mae, Leona Mae and Joneva Mae were one in Mae-love.
I.1.2 In the Attitude of Complacent Agape
Leona and Levaur came together in very positive times.
The First World War was ending and the Roaring Twenties
were already beginning their expansive and manic build up.
The Republican Party made life good for American farmers.
They had claimed their free land and the banking system
helped them get a herd of sheep and a pick-up truck and
all they needed to make the whole wonderful outfit work.
As a young girl between five and eight Gramma went through
very difficult times that would strengthen her throughout life.
In her memoirs Gramma Coates writes: “Father and mother
had misunderstandings so mother took me to Montana with her
where we lived for a year. Later father came out and got me
and I lived with his sister, Ida Blair, near Bellevue.
My mother passed away from a heart attack.” Gramma’s
mother was only seventeen when she married and all
of her trials must have been damaging to her immune system.
For her eight years of grade school Gramma grew up
in Bellevue, right there in the center of Blaine County, Idaho,
in a thriving mining town which was the State’s third largest city.
Already as a child Gramma loved her school and her church.
Two of her relatives from back in Kentucky were Bible scholars.
She loved reading and writing and listening and speaking and
those liberal arts opened her in her dreaming and thinking to
a desire for ever further learning, knowing and understanding.
The Anglican Church was very community minded and
searched out ways to be of service to any who were in need.
She learned the Our Father and it became her favorite prayer.
It helped form her inner-most attitude in a spirit of loving
forgiveness as she prayed each morn and each night: “Forgive
us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.”
Baby Joneva Mae identified with Leona Mae’s forgiving heart.
I.1.3 In the Mood of Concerned Agape
During her first and second year mother had her mother
all to herself but within eighteen months Gramma
was already carrying Aunt Mid and mother was weaned.
Even though as a young mother in her early twenties
Gramma Coates had a fundamental attitude of complacency,
literally, of being pleased with all of existence, she was still
a person of great concern for not only was she anxious
about having lost her mother but she had identified with
her young mother’s anxiety that brought her to run away
with her baby and then saw her baby taken away from her.
After becoming settled in Bellevue her father then up rooted
her again and sent her to relatives in Spokane, Washington,
a city of much greater opportunity for her high school study.
Out of anxious concern her complacency was built up
just as it was out of the World War that the great jubilation
of the Twenties came frolicking forth all happy and free.
Gramma Coates’ mood of complacent concern was
a preference for some values over others in an hierarchy.
She learned of intellectual and spiritual values and in
her mood she felt and preferred them over physical and
vital values which could perish and pass away as did
her physical mother and the physical town of Bellevue
even though spiritually they could be vitally present within.
Just as mother as an infant totally identified with her
mother’s mood so she became a child concerned about
things that might remain and not be taken away.
And complacency and concern balanced each other
in a logic of mixed opposites that did not let
good complacency become bad, satisfied complacency or
let concern become worried and consuming concern.
I.1.4 In the Sense of Proactive Sensitivity
As a young girl Gramma Coates learned to control
her reactions so that she did not at once fall into
negativity out of the force of habit that increases habit.
In Spokane Leona identified with Aunt Sadie who was
only ten years older than herself and the good Episcopalians
taught the young ladies many proverbs to build character
such as: “Count to ten before you get angry.” And Leona
reflected upon and worked upon affirmative proactive responses
instead of negative reactions which could taint everything.
St. Paul clearly saw that the good I intended to do I do not
but the evil that I resolve against, that I often do.
St. Paul was given the grace to be free to serve others
and the Anglicans taught their young to pray for that grace.
And even at the age of four mother began to care for
baby bum lambs who lost their mothers in late winter.
Her love for them taught her patience and peaceful positivity.
She