Mistletoe Seductions: A Mistletoe Proposal / Midnight Under the Mistletoe / Wedding Date with Mr Wrong. Nicola MarshЧитать онлайн книгу.
yes. But I can’t prove it without his help. I guess I’m just not doing my job properly. I haven’t beguiled him very well if he’s defending her against me.’
‘Charlie’s loyal. If he had feelings for her once, he wouldn’t drop her in it now.’
‘That’s nice of him but don’t you see what it means? ‘
‘It means my brother’s an idiot, but we knew that.’
‘It means I’ve failed. He was supposed to be so much under my spell that he’d do anything I said. Hah! Some spell! I’m useless.’
‘That’s enough. You’re not useless. It’s only been a few days.’
‘But you thought he’d take one look at me and become my willing slave,’ she said wryly. ‘Or something like that. This isn’t what you expected when you hired me. Perhaps you should get someone else.’
‘Someone else?’ he echoed. ‘Someone else with your eyes, your laughter, your charm? Is there anyone else? Pippa, you knocked Charlie sideways in the first moment.’
‘You’re just being kind.’
‘I’m not known for my kindness,’ he said drily. ‘And once you’d have been the first to say so. I knew from the start that you were exactly what I wanted—for Charlie, I mean. And you’re doing well. Look how you found out about this. I had no idea.’
‘But I’m failing.’
‘Why are you so hard on yourself? It’s not like you.’
Now she was all at sea, taken by surprise by his understanding.
‘You don’t know what’s like me,’ she muttered.
‘Don’t I? Well, perhaps I’m learning, and perhaps the things I’m learning are surprising me.’
She tried to be sensible, but it was hard with Roscoe’s gentle eyes on her.
‘Obviously I don’t have the hold on him that you wanted,’ she murmured.
‘I think you do. The other night, when you were dancing together and he tried to kiss you at the end—’
‘That didn’t mean anything,’ she said quickly. ‘He just saw it as part of the dance.’
‘But earlier that evening, when you were at the table and you—’
‘I didn’t kiss him.’
‘No, but you did this.’ Roscoe leaned forward, putting his hands on either side of her face and looking into her eyes. ‘You did this,’ he repeated. ‘Don’t you remember?’
‘Yes,’ she said breathlessly. ‘I remember now.’
She waited for him to release her, but for some reason he didn’t. She had the strangest impression that he was imprisoned in himself, wanting to move but unable to. Then she knew that the feeling was there inside her also. His hands were warm and firm against her cheeks, his eyes uncertain and questioning as she’d never seen them before. How dark and mysterious they were, inviting her to explore depths that enticed her. His lips, so often set in a firm line, were slightly parted, the sound of his breathing reaching her softly.
He’d been watching her all the time in the nightclub, she realised; not just dancing but when she was sitting at the table with Charlie, laughing with him, smiling at him. He’d noted every gesture, every moment of warmth.
She felt a tremor go through her and realised that it came from him. He was shaking. She drew in a sharp breath and in the same moment he dropped his hands, as though the touch of her burned him.
And she saw fear in his eyes.
His alarm had an instant effect on her, reminding her of her own caution about getting too close.
‘You misunderstood what you saw,’ she said quickly. ‘It was just friendly. That’s all I can ever manage. Just friendly. That’s why you didn’t have to worry about me bringing anyone home tonight. I know what I look like, but it’s not real. People would be amazed to know how virtuously I live.’
‘I wouldn’t,’ he murmured, but she didn’t hear him.
‘It’s all front, all presentation,’ she hurried on, gabbling slightly. ‘So I suppose that makes me a tease. I meet a man, we go out, have a good time, exchange a few kisses—oh, yes, I don’t deny that—and he thinks that sooner or later he’s going to have a night of pleasure. I don’t intentionally deceive them, but pretty soon I realise that I can’t go through with it. He isn’t “the one” and the kindest thing to do is tell him.’
‘Yes, I saw that the first night,’ he reminded her. ‘But why, Pippa? You could have any man you wanted.’
‘No, I couldn’t,’ she said. Pippa turned sharply away and walked to the window, filled with shrieking alarm at the way the distance between them was closing by the minute. It was safer to pull apart now.
But perhaps Roscoe’s courage was greater than hers because he followed and stood just behind her, not touching but barely an inch apart.
‘What happened?’ he asked softly.
‘It doesn’t matter.’
‘Yes, it does. It matters because you’ve made it your whole life. If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t scare you as much as it does.’
‘I’m not scared,’ she said brightly. ‘What is there to be scared of?’
‘You tell me—if you can put it into words.’
‘You’re making something out of nothing. I had a bad experience, but so does everyone.’
‘Yes, but yours went deep enough to damn near destroy you,’ he said in a voice that was mysteriously fierce and gentle at the same time.
That almost shattered her control. Out of sight, she clenched her hands and forced herself to shrug.
‘Look, I lost the man I wanted and it cured me of silly fantasies.’
Hands on her shoulders, he turned her to face him. He was frowning slightly. ‘And what do you define as “silly fantasies”?’
‘Love lasting for ever. Moon rhyming with June. It’s all a con trick. Have fun, but don’t start believing in it, that’s my motto.’
‘Do you really not believe in people truly loving each other, wanting to give to each other, make sacrifices for each other?’
She gave a little laugh. ‘I believed in it once. Not any more. Let’s leave it.’
‘What happened?’
She shrugged. ‘It turned out that he didn’t believe in it, that’s all. Unfortunately, he discovered that rather late in the day. The wedding was planned, everything booked—the church, the honeymoon. So we had to cancel the arrangements. Very boring, but a useful lesson in reality.’
She finished with a tinkling laugh that made him look at her shrewdly.
‘I see,’ he said, nodding.
‘Do you? I wonder. I don’t suppose you know much about being jilted.’
He didn’t reply for a moment. Then he said simply, ‘Don’t jump to conclusions.’
Suddenly, as though he too had heard the sounding of an alarm, he stepped back, asking, ‘Is there any more tea?’ in a voice whose brittleness matched her own.
‘Yes, I’ll make a fresh cup. Sit down and wait for me.’
He’d revealed more than he’d meant to and was hastily blocking a door he’d half opened. Pippa understood the feeling, having done the same. Now she was glad to escape to the kitchen and have a few moments alone to calm her riotous feelings.
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