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evening sun is sliding across the patio. I fill two bowls with crisps and nuts and we pull sweaters on and go and sit on the garden bench so Dominique can smoke. The magnolia tree is out and the faint musty scent of the waxy blooms wafts over.

      I smile. In Cornwall the …

      ‘I miss the sea,’ Dominique says as if she can read my mind. ‘That blur of blue everywhere you turn …’

      ‘The hawthorn and gorse will be coming out now …’

      Great frothy white bushes and low-lying yellow gorse shimmering over the cliffs and smelling of …

      ‘… marzipan filling the air and giving us constant hay fever …’ Dominique says and we both laugh.

      ‘When I’m homesick I walk the coastal path. I can remember every stile, kissing gate and muddy path from our house to Priest’s Cove …’ I tell her.

      ‘Forbidden Beach. That’s where I go.’

      ‘I wonder if the secret path down through the hawthorn tunnel is still there?’

      ‘Do you remember the tiny shells brought in by storms we sometimes found in the rock pools?’

      ‘Is that what gave you the idea for the wedding dress?’

      ‘Perhaps. Subconsciously. When I need inspiration I go back to the sea in my head. It gives me the illusion of space and freedom. At night a city is never still. Nothing stops. Do you remember that particular silence? Sitting in a field in an absence of anything but birdsong and the swoosh of the sea?’

      ‘I remember,’ I say and hear the sadness in my voice. ‘How small silence made you feel. I remember that beautiful fox as big as a Labrador and the buzzards weaving and diving over the cliffs …’

      I remember the seals off the rocks and the spine-tingling howl a mother seal sometimes makes when they lose their young. I don’t say this, I can’t say this, for the howl is banging around inside me for the things Dominique and I seem never to be able to talk about. Even though Maman and Papa are dead we never address the elephant in the room: the catastrophic end of our idyllic childhood together.

      The sun slides behind buildings leaving charcoal and pink clouds. We are in shadow. We shiver, pick up the glasses and bowls and go inside.

      ‘Mushroom omelette?’

      ‘Lovely.’

      As Dominique prepares the salad for me I glance at her face. Her dark hair is pulled back in a ponytail revealing an intent expression I know well. She wants to tell me something. It is a long time since we have been together like this, without Mike, without our children.

      I slide two fluffy omelettes onto plates and Dominique pours more champagne.

      ‘Let’s finish the bottle? It is Sunday tomorrow.’

      ‘Dominique?’ I ask, suddenly. ‘You wanted to go to Cornwall last year. Shall we plan a trip back together? Maybe see what the new owner has done to our house?’

      ‘No, Gabby.’ Dominique shakes her head. ‘The moment has gone, darling. I’m planning a trip to New York to see the girls in June.’

      ‘Oh. That’s wonderful,’ I say, deflated. ‘Are they both okay?’

      Aimee, Dominique’s eldest, is a paediatrician and expecting her first child with her American husband. Cecile is living with a musician in Manhattan and doing a PhD in something obscure.

      Their Turkish father walked out on Dominique when she produced a second girl. Despite the rackety, uncertain lifestyle Dominique used to live, the three of them are very close.

      ‘Are you staying with Aimee?’ I ask.

      ‘I’m staying with Cecile for the first week. She’s taking me on a surprise holiday. Then I am going to Aimee. I’d like to be there when she gives birth, but we’ll see. I don’t want to outstay my welcome.’

      I smile. ‘I can’t believe you’re going to be a granny! Seeing the girls is just what you need after the Marathon Dress.’

      Dominique puts her fork down and stares at me. ‘Actually, Gabby, I’m … I’m …’

      I catch a sudden bleakness in her eyes. ‘Dom? What is it? Tell me. I know something’s worrying you …’

      She hesitates. I hold my breath. Tell me. But my sister closes her eyes, sighs and changes her mind.

      ‘Pff! I’m getting maudlin. It’s the champagne …’ She smiles at me. ‘At least, I can promise the girls I will be a better grandmother than I was a mother. I have so many regrets for what I put them through.’

      ‘Look how they have both turned out. You can’t have got it all wrong. You know they love you to bits.’

      ‘They seem to, don’t they?’ She holds her glass up and meets my eyes. ‘Don’t let’s delve into my past and spoil our evening together. It’s been lovely, Gabby.’

      The moment has passed, as it always does. ‘It has been lovely.’ We clink glasses. ‘We must try to do this more often …’

      Dominique laughs and glances over my shoulder. ‘Oh! I just saw a fat little piggy fly by …’

      In the morning Dominique and I are both hungover. I drive her to Gatwick to catch her plane back to Paris. As we say goodbye I realize how much weight she has lost. She was wearing a loose dress last night so it was hard to see. She looks smaller and frailer this morning, and I feel a stab of fear.

      ‘You’re losing weight, Dominique. Are you ill? Is that what you were trying to tell me?’

      ‘Pff!’ She raises her eyebrows in amusement. ‘I’m not ill. You’ve just got used to me being fat …’

      ‘I don’t like you being this thin …’

      ‘I will be fat again after I have been to America …’ She touches my cheek. ‘Don’t worry, darling, I’m afraid I’ve got to the age when a hangover is not a good look …’

      I hug her. ‘Have a wonderful holiday with the girls …’

      Dominique holds me away from her. ‘Gabby, you have too much work and not enough play in your life at the moment. Grab some excitement for yourself while you’re young enough to enjoy it. Your husband certainly seems to …’

      And with that cryptic remark she is gone, threading through the crowds.

      As I drive past a sign for Paddington Station I experience the old, nostalgic pull for Cornwall. I have an irrational urge to leave everything behind and jump on the Cornish Riviera to Penzance. Except, of course, there will be no one waiting for me at the other end.

      It lies, the landscape of my childhood, rooted behind my eyelids. Iridescent blue skies; foaming peacock seas against floating hills of white hawthorn; hedgerows crammed with tiny wild flowers. Silver-winged terns rising from cabbage fields with the precision of a Red Arrows acrobatic team. Vicious winds hitting the house head on, creeping through every crack. All embedded into my being; an internal map of home, waiting for me to revisit, not empty rooms, but happy ghosts before the fall.

       CHAPTER FIFTEEN

       London, 2010

      I wake in the night with a start. Someone is in the house. I lie motionless with my heart hammering. My mobile is in the kitchen.

      I can hear someone moving about downstairs. For a second I wonder if I am in the middle of a nightmare. But the light on the landing shines in an arc through the doorway. I am awake and this is real.

      Someone once told me that if you ever hear someone in your house you should stay in bed and pretend you are asleep.


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