Desired By The Boss. Catherine MannЧитать онлайн книгу.

      ‘Boxes suck as party decorations.’

      Hugh’s voice made April jump.

      Her stool wobbled dramatically, and his hand landed firmly at her waist, steadying her.

      She was wearing a chunky knitted jumper with a wide neck. The wool was soft against his fingers and the shape of her waist a perfect fit against his palm. But he made sure his hand dropped away the instant the chair was still.

      A moment after that April practically leapt from her seat, turning to face him.

      ‘I didn’t hear you,’ she said, unnecessarily.

      Her gaze roamed over him—just briefly. He was wearing his normal uniform of sorts: jeans, T-shirt, hoodie, trainers. Completely unremarkable.

      And yet he sensed April’s appreciation. She liked how he looked.

      Although hadn’t he known that since he’d helped her out of that stripy top? He’d certainly appreciated how April looked from the moment he’d first seen her.

      Today was no different.

      She wore light-washed jeans, and her jumper was pale lemon, oversized and slouchy, revealing much of her golden shoulders and a thin silver chain at her neck. Her dark hair was scraped back from her face in a high ponytail. It was neater than normal—probably because it was early in the day, and all those rogue strands hadn’t had the opportunity to escape.

      He gave himself a mental shake. It wasn’t important. Wasn’t he supposed to be annoyed with her?

      That was what he’d meant to do when he’d walked into the kitchen to find April so absorbed in those photos that she hadn’t heard his approach. He’d meant to ask her, What the hell are you doing?

      Although, he reflected, that would have been a dumb question.

      She was looking at photos. Duh.

      But why? There was no need any more. The photos were his responsibility now. And something about having her look through them felt...almost intimate. Crazy when a few days ago she’d done the same thing with his school photos and he hadn’t cared.

      Or at least hadn’t let himself care. He’d still been telling himself the photos were worthless and meaningless to him, after all.

      But that hadn’t been true.

      So maybe that was why his instinctive reaction was anger—anger that she’d been looking at images he now accepted meant something to him. Just what they meant he could work out later. They were his, and they were private photos. None of her business.

      But by the time he’d gone to speak he hadn’t been angry at all.

      Boxes suck as party decorations.

      ‘You stopped having birthday parties,’ April said, reading his mind.

      ‘Yeah,’ Hugh said.

      He stepped closer to the bench, picking up a bundle of the photos she’d been studying with such concentration. He’d dump them in the box to take down to his flat. He would go through the photos later. It had been nice of April to offer to help him, but it wasn’t necessary.

      ‘I didn’t notice at first,’ he said. ‘You know...all the clutter, I mean. I was a kid. It was just my house. When I was old enough to tidy I kept my room pretty neat, but the rest of the house... I don’t know. Like I said, it was just my house.’

      Hugh hadn’t intended to continue the conversation. At all. And yet—he continued.

      ‘The other kids didn’t notice either. Why would they? Their parents may have, but I wouldn’t have known, and Mum never would’ve cared.’

      ‘Really?’ April asked with raised eyebrows.

      Hugh shook his head. ‘No. At first it wasn’t that bad, and my mum had always been pretty forthright about people accepting each other for who they were. She figured if the house was a bit untidy what was the big deal?’

      ‘But you didn’t like it?’

      ‘No,’ he said. ‘And it just got worse. And as kids get older they notice things. I had a friend over one day after school, before it got really bad, and he had a box fall on him while we were playing. He was fine, but I remember his mum talking to my mum in this really low, concerned voice, asking if she was okay and if she’d like some help. My mum didn’t like that. She laughed, I remember, and said she’d just had a busy week and really needed to get all the stuff to the charity shop.’

      He was flipping through the photos, but not looking at them.

      ‘That was a lie. I knew she was never going to do that. Although I suppose maybe she was telling herself that she would one day. I don’t know. But—anyway—my mum never lied. Ever. And that combined with the other mum obviously thinking something was wrong... Well, then I knew something was wrong. So I didn’t have anyone over again.’

      April hadn’t moved from where she stood. She just watched him, letting him speak.

      ‘Things got worse after that. Mum was always really sociable. I remember when I was really little that she’d have these elaborate dinner parties where she’d always try something fancy out of this fat hardcover cookbook she’d get from the library. But they stopped, too. She’d still go out and see her friends—we had a nice neighbour and I’d go and stay with her and watch TV—but the house was just for us. Us and the damn boxes.’

      ‘That must have been hard,’ April said.

      Her words were soft. Kind. That was the last thing he wanted. Kindness. Pity. He didn’t know her. Why was he telling her this?

      ‘I was fine,’ he said, his words hard-edged. ‘I managed.’

      She stepped close to him now and reached out her hand, resting it just below his elbow.

      Instinctively he shook his arm free. ‘What are you doing?’

      She looked surprised—at her action or his, he couldn’t be sure.

      April swallowed. ‘Sorry. I...’ There was a pause, then she straightened her shoulders. ‘I wanted to touch you,’ she said. ‘I thought it might help.’

      He shook his head. ‘It was a long time ago,’ he said. ‘I’m fine.’

      ‘A long time ago?’ she prompted, her forehead wrinkled.

      Hugh ran a hand through his hair. ‘I mean since I had to live like that. Mum—’ He hadn’t intended to explain, but he couldn’t stop himself. ‘When she met Len I was in the Lower Sixth, and she got better. She got the help she needed—did this cognitive behavioural therapy stuff, got in a professional organiser—and then, when she married Len, we moved here. She was good for a long time. It only started