New Year, New Man. Laura IdingЧитать онлайн книгу.
last night to be positive, and not negative; to view Nick’s invitation to share a whole month with him as a step towards a real relationship? Hadn’t she vowed to use this time not just to explore the sexual chemistry between them, but also to revive that special bond which had sprung up all those years ago when they’d both been so very lonely?
She hoped that, besides the sex, they would have deep and meaningful conversations during which Nick would tell her everything about himself, and vice versa.
‘You’re not drinking your champagne,’ Nick pointed out.
Sarah turned a rueful smile his way. ‘It is a little early. I think coffee would have been a better choice.’
‘It’s a woman’s privilege to change her mind,’ he said amiably, and pressed the button for service.
Sarah watched with pride as he gave the stewardess back the champagne and asked for coffee instead. She loved his decisiveness, his ‘can-do’ attitude. Nick was a natural leader, something her father had once commented on.
Sarah believed he would make a great husband and father. But would Nick ever believe it?
‘I have a confession to make,’ he said after the coffee arrived.
Sarah’s stomach contracted. ‘Nothing that will upset me, I hope.’
‘No reason why it should.’
‘Out with it, then.’
‘I read all your Christmas cards. The ones on your dressing table.’
Her stomach relaxed. ‘Oh? When?’
‘Yesterday. When you were having a shower.’
‘And?’
‘I don’t think I’ve ever seen such glowing words. It’s a privilege to be in the company of the “bestest” teacher in the whole wide world.’
Sarah laughed. ‘A slight exaggeration. But I am pretty good.’
‘And yet you’ve resigned?’
‘Only from my current school. I’ll find another position closer to home. Possibly at a preschool. I’m very fond of small children. They have such open minds.’
‘I don’t have any patience with small children.’
‘Lots of men don’t. But they change, once they have their own.’
His glance was sharp. ‘I won’t. Because I don’t intend having any of my own.’
Sarah kept her expression calm. ‘Why’s that?’
‘Fathering is a learned skill, passed on from generation to generation. The only example I ever had of fathering is not something I’d like to pass on.’
‘Not every child of abusive parents becomes an abuser themselves, Nick,’ she said carefully.
‘Perhaps not. But why take the chance? The world has enough children. They won’t miss mine.’
‘You might change your mind if you were presented with one.’
He whipped his head round to glare at her. ‘You have brought your pills with you, haven’t you? You’re not going to try that old pregnancy trap. Because it won’t work, Sarah. Not with me.’
The coldness in his eyes sent a chill running down her spine.
But she refused to give up on him. For now, anyway.
‘I have no intention of trying to trap you with a baby, Nick. And yes, I have brought my pills. You can feed me one every day, if you’d like.’
‘I just might do that.’
‘Have you always been this paranoid about pregnancy?’
‘Let’s just say you’re the first female I’ve ever had sex with without a condom.’
‘It’s nice to know that I’m unique.’
He smiled wryly as he shook his head at her. ‘You are that, all right. Now, drink your coffee before it goes cold and I have to call the stewardess again.’
She drank her coffee quickly, anxious to get back to their conversation. It would be a couple more hours before they landed on Happy Island, with Nick imprisoned by her side all that time. Sarah didn’t think she’d ever have a better opportunity to find out all the things she’d ever wanted to know about him. She suspected that once they hit Happy Island, there might not be too much talking done.
‘Tell me about your life, Nick,’ she said when she finally put the coffee down. ‘Before you came to work for Dad. I’m curious.’
‘I never talk about that part of my life, Sarah.’
‘But that’s silly. It’s not as though I don’t already know quite a bit. I know you had a horrible father and that you ran away from home to live on the streets when you were only thirteen. And I know that you were put in jail for car-stealing when you were eighteen.’
‘Then you know enough, don’t you?’
‘Those are just the bare facts. I want you to fill in the details.’
Nick sighed. ‘You do pick your moments.’
‘I think I have the right to know some more about the man I’m sleeping with, don’t you? You used to give my boyfriends the third degree.’
‘But I’m not your boyfriend. I’m your secret lover. Secret lovers are often men of mystery.’
‘Sorry, but you’re not my secret lover any longer. I told Flora last night that we were together.’
‘You what?’
Sarah shrugged. ‘I said I was sorry.’
‘Like hell you are. You’re a conniving, manipulative little minx.’
Sarah could see that he wasn’t as angry as he was trying to sound. And she had no intention of backing off.
‘So are you going to tell me your life story, or not?’
‘Do you think you’re up for it, little girl?’
‘Don’t insult my intelligence, Nick. I might not have been around like you, but I watch the news at night, and I can read. I know about the big, bad world. Nothing you say will shock me.’
What a naïve statement, Sarah was to discover over the next quarter of an hour as she listened to Nick’s dreadful life story.
His mother had run off when he’d been too young to remember her, his lone-parent father a violent and drunken good-for-nothing who taught his son to shoplift when he was only five and beat him every other day. Sarah was appalled as Nick described being not only punched and slapped, but also beaten with belts and burned with cigarettes.
Naturally, Nick’s schooling had been limited—he was kept away a lot—but he was smart enough to learn to read and write. Love, of course, had been an unknown emotion. He’d counted himself lucky to be fed. Survival had been the name of the game.
When he’d gone into puberty at thirteen, he’d suddenly shot up in height and was able to look his father straight in the eye. For the first time when his father hit him, Nick had hit back.
He hadn’t actually run away from home as she’d thought. He’d been literally thrown out into the street with only the clothes he was wearing.
He’d stayed in a refuge for a while, but was unfortunate enough to find one that was run by someone who wasn’t interested in helping, just in pocketing his salary. Not the best introduction to the welfare system for an already emotionally scarred child. After running away from there, Nick had made his way to King’s Cross in Sydney, where he squatted in derelict buildings and made money the only way he knew: by stealing. Not shoplifting. Mostly he broke into parked cars and stole the contents.
He’d