The Comedienne. Władysław Stanisław ReymontЧитать онлайн книгу.
his hand, he sprang at Janina to strike her, but the cold, almost scornful, expression of her face brought him to his senses.
"Get out of here!" he roared, pointing to the door, "get out! … Do you hear? I turn you out of my home forever! … You will never again pass this threshold while I live, for I will kill you like a mad dog and throw you out of the door! … I have no longer any daughter!"
"Very well, I will go … " she answered mechanically.
"I no longer have any daughter! Henceforth I don't want to know you or hear anything of you! … Go and perish … I will kill you! … " he shouted, rushing up and down the room like a madman.
His insane violence now burst out in full force. He rushed out of the house and from the window Janina saw him running toward the woods.
She sat silent, dumb, and as though turned to ice. She had expected everything, but never this. She burned with resentment but not a single tear clouded her eye. She gazed about her distractedly, for that hoarse cry still rang in her ears: "Get out of here! … get out!"
"I will go, I will go … " she whispered in a humble and broken voice through the tears that filled her heart, "I will go. … "
"God, my God! why am I so unhappy?" she cried after a while.
Krenska, who had heard all, approached her. With feigned tears in her eyes she began to comfort her, but Janina gently pushed her away. It was not that which she needed; not that kind of comforting.
"My father has driven me out … I must leave … " she said, marveling at her own words.
"But that is preposterous! … Surely your father can be placated. … "
"No … I will not stay here any longer. I have enough of this torment … enough. … "
"Are you going to your aunt's house?"
Janina was sunk in thought for a moment, but suddenly her gloomy face brightened with a flash of determination.
"I will go and join the theater. The die is cast! … "
Krenska glanced at her sharply.
"Come, help me pack my trunk. I will leave on the next train."
"The next passenger train does not go to Kielce."
"It doesn't matter. I will go to Strzemieszyce, and from there, by the Viennese line to Warsaw. … "
"If I were you, Janina, I'd think it over. … Later you may regret it. … "
"What's done can't be undone! … "
And without paying any further attention to Krenska's remarks, Janina began to pack. Her lingerie, her dresses, her books and notes, and various trifles she carefully folded away into her school-day trunk, as though she were returning from her vacation.
At the end she bade farewell to Krenska indifferently. Outwardly she appeared calm and cool, while a slight tremor of her lips alone, and an inner tremor that she could not still, were the only traces of the storm.
She ordered her things carried downstairs, and, having still an hour's time, she went to the woods.
"Forever … " she said in a subdued tone, as though addressing the trees that seemed to bend toward her with a mournful murmur and rustling of their leaves.
"Forever! … " she whispered, gazing at the crimson gleams of the setting sun that filtered through the tangled branches of the beeches and shone upon the ground.
The woods seemed wrapt in a great silence, as though they were listening to her words of final farewell and dumbly wondering how one who had been born and reared in their midst, who had lived with their life, who had dreamed so many dreams in their embracing silence, could bid farewell.
The trees murmured mournfully. A sigh like a song of farewell and a sad reproach echoed through the wood. The ferns stirred with a gentle motion, the young hazel leaves fluttered restlessly, the pines rustled softly with their slender needles the whole wood trembled and became alive with a prolonged moan. The song of the birds sounded in broken, startled little snatches, while over the sky, and over the earth carpeted with leaves and golden mosses and snowy valley-lilies, and through the whole verdant wood there flitted mysterious shadows, sounds and calls like the echo of sorrowful sobbing.
"Stay with me! … Stay!" the wood seemed to say.
The torrent roared noisily, swept away the broken boughs that impeded its course, circled and descended in a cloud of foam, a cascade of mist shining in the sun with all the colors of the rainbow; it went irresistibly onward, triumphantly, whispering: "Go! … Go!"
Then there followed a great silence, broken only by the hum of insects and the dull clatter of falling acorns.
"Forever! … " whispered Janina.
She arose and started back toward the station. She walked slowly, looking about her with fond, lingering gaze upon the trees, the woodpaths, and the hillsides.
Then she began to think of the new existence before her. There slowly arose in her soul a certain self-conscious power and increasing courage.
When she spied her father on the station platform, not so much as a tremor disturbed her. Already there loomed between them that new world which already lured her.
She even went to the station-master's office for a ticket. She stood before the window and asked for it in a loud voice. Orlowski (for he sold the tickets himself) raised his head with a violent start and something like a red shadow passed over his face, but he did not utter a word. He calmly handed her her change and stared at her coldly, stroking his beard.
On leaving, she turned her head and met his burning gaze. He started violently back from the window and swore aloud, while she went on, only somehow she went more slowly and her legs trembled under her. That gleam of his eyes, as though bloody with tears, struck deep into her heart.
The train arrived and she got on. From the window of the car she still kept gazing at the station. Krenska waved to her with a handkerchief from the house and pretended she was wiping away tears.
Orlowski, in a red cap and immaculately white gloves, paced up and down the platform with a stiff official air and did not glance even once in her direction.
The bell rang and the train pulled out.
The telegrapher was bowing his farewell to her, but she did not see him; she saw only how her father slowly turned about and entered the office.
"Forever! … " she whispered. Orlowski came in for supper at the usual hour.
Krenska, in spite of her joy at Janina's departure, was uneasy; she glanced into his eyes with a feeling of fear, walked about even more silently than usual, and was humbler and smaller than ever before.
Orlowski seemed to be wrestling with himself, for he did not burst forth in curses and did not even mention Janina.
On the following day only he locked Janina's room and put the key away in his desk.
He did not sleep that night; his eyes were sunken and his face deathly pale. Krenska heard him walking up and down his room all night, but on the following day he was at work as usual.
At dinner Krenska plucked up courage to speak to him about something.
"Aha … I have still to settle with you!" he said.
Krenska grew pale. She began to speak to him about Janina, about her sympathy for her, how she had tried to dissuade her from leaving, how earnestly she had begged her.
"You're a fool!" he hurled at her. "She left because she wanted to. … Let her break her neck, if she wants to!"
Krenska began to commiserate his loneliness.
"A cur!" he snarled, spitting beside him in scorn. "You, madame, can leave to-day. I will pay you what is due you and then get out of this house as fast as you can