Four Mystery Plays. Rudolf SteinerЧитать онлайн книгу.
what hath happened? All, that in mine eyes
Stood forth revealed in its own naked Truth
As purest life, brought death, my friend, to thee
And slew thy spirit.
Johannes:
And slew thy spirit. Aye. ’Tis so indeed.
What lifts thy soul to Heaven’s sun-kissed heights
When through thy life it comes into mine own
Thrusts my soul down, to death’s abysmal gloom.
When in our friendship’s rosy-fingered dawn
To this revealment thou didst lead me on,
Which sheds its light into the darkened realms,
Where human souls do enter every night,
Bereft of conscious life, and where full oft
Man’s being wanders erring: whilst the night
Of Death makes mock at Life’s reality.
And when thou didst reveal to me the truth
Of life’s return, then did I know full well
That I should grow to perfect spirit-man.
Surely, it seemed, the artist’s clear keen eye,
And certain touch of a creator’s hand,
Would blossom for me through thy spirit’s fire
And noble might. Full deep I breathed this fire
Into my being; when—behold—it robbed
The ebb and flow of all my spirit’s power.
Remorselessly it drove out from my heart
All faith in this our world. And now I reach
A point where I no longer clearly see,
Whether to doubt or whether to believe
The revelation of the spirit-worlds.
Nay more, I even lack the power to love
That which in thee the spirit’s beauty shows.
Maria:
Alas! The years that pass have taught me this:
That mine own way to live the spirit-life
Doth change into its opposite, whene’er
It penetrates another’s character.
And I must also see how spirit-power
Grows rich in blessing when, by other paths,
It pours itself into the souls of men.
(Enter Philia, Astrid, and Luna.)
It floweth forth in speech, and in these words
Lies power to raise to realms celestial
Man’s common mode of thinking; and create
A world of joy, where erstwhile brooded gloom.
Aye, it can change the spirit’s shallowness
To depths of earnest feeling; and can cast
Man’s character in sure and noble mould.
And I—yes, I am altogether filled
By just this spirit-power, and must behold
The pain and desolation that it brings
To other hearts, when from mine own it pours.
Philia:
It seemed as though the voices of some choir
(Enter Prof. Capesius and Dr. Strader.)
Mingled together, uttering manifold
Conceptions and opinions, each his own,
Of these who formed our recent gathering.
Full many harmonies there were indeed,
But also many a harsh-toned dissonance.
Maria:
Ah, when the words and speech of many men
Present themselves in such wise to the soul,
It seems as though man’s very prototype
Stood centred there in secret mystery:
Become through many souls articulate,
As in the rainbow’s arch pure Light itself
Grows visible in many-coloured rays.
Capesius:
Through changing scenes of many centuries
We wandered year on year in earnest search;
Striving to fathom deep the living force
That dwelt within the souls of those who sought
To probe and scan the fundaments of being,
And set before man’s soul the goals of life.
We thought that in the depths of our own souls
We lived the higher powers of thought itself;
And thus could solve the riddles set by Fate.
We felt we had, or seemed at least to feel,
Sure basis in the logic of our mind
When new experiences crossed our path
Questioning there the judgment of our soul.
Yet now such basis wavers, when amazed
I hear today, as I have heard before,
The mode of thought taught by these people here.
And more and more uncertain do I grow,
When I perceive, how powerfully in life
This mode of thought doth work. Full many a day
Have I spent thus, thinking how I might shape
Time’s riddles as they solved themselves to me
In words, that hearts might grasp and trembling feel.
Happy indeed was I, if I could fill
Only the smallest corner of some soul
Amongst my audience with the warmth of life.
And oftentimes it seemed success was mine,
Nor would I make complaint of fruitless days.
Yet all results of teaching thus could lead
Only to recognition of this truth
So loved and emphasized by men of deeds,
That in the clash of life’s realities,
Thoughts are dim shadows, nothing more nor less:
They may indeed wing life’s creative powers
To due fruition, but they cannot shape
And mould our life themselves. So have I judged
And with this modest comment was content:
Where pale thoughts only work, all life is lamed
And likewise all that joins itself to life.
More potent than the ripest form of words,
However art might weave therein her spell,
Seemed nature’s gift, man’s