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among the constellations. They had gazed at him in their strange, surcharged hours of feeling, until they seemed themselves to live in every one of his stars. This evening Paul had been moody and perverse. Orion had seemed just an ordinary constellation to him. He had fought against his glamour and fascination. Miriam was watching her lover's mood carefully. But he said nothing that gave him away, till the moment came to part, when he stood frowning gloomily at the gathered clouds, behind which the great constellation must be striding still.
There was to be a little party at his house the next day, at which she was to attend.
“I shan't come and meet you,” he said.
“Oh, very well; it's not very nice out,” she replied slowly.
“It's not that—only they don't like me to. They say I care more for you than for them. And you understand, don't you? You know it's only friendship.”
Miriam was astonished and hurt for him. It had cost him an effort. She left him, wanting to spare him any further humiliation. A fine rain blew in her face as she walked along the road. She was hurt deep down; and she despised him for being blown about by any wind of authority. And in her heart of hearts, unconsciously, she felt that he was trying to get away from her. This she would never have acknowledged. She pitied him.
At this time Paul became an important factor in Jordan's warehouse. Mr. Pappleworth left to set up a business of his own, and Paul remained with Mr. Jordan as Spiral overseer. His wages were to be raised to thirty shillings at the year-end, if things went well.
Still on Friday night Miriam often came down for her French lesson. Paul did not go so frequently to Willey Farm, and she grieved at the thought of her education's coming to end; moreover, they both loved to be together, in spite of discords. So they read Balzac, and did compositions, and felt highly cultured.
Friday night was reckoning night for the miners. Morel “reckoned”—shared up the money of the stall—either in the New Inn at Bretty or in his own house, according as his fellow-butties wished. Barker had turned a non-drinker, so now the men reckoned at Morel's house.
Annie, who had been teaching away, was at home again. She was still a tomboy; and she was engaged to be married. Paul was studying design.
Morel was always in good spirits on Friday evening, unless the week's earnings were small. He bustled immediately after his dinner, prepared to get washed. It was decorum for the women to absent themselves while the men reckoned. Women were not supposed to spy into such a masculine privacy as the butties' reckoning, nor were they to know the exact amount of the week's earnings. So, whilst her father was spluttering in the scullery, Annie went out to spend an hour with a neighbour. Mrs. Morel attended to her baking.
“Shut that doo-er!” bawled Morel furiously.
Annie banged it behind her, and was gone.
“If tha oppens it again while I'm weshin' me, I'll ma'e thy jaw rattle,” he threatened from the midst of his soap-suds. Paul and the mother frowned to hear him.
Presently he came running out of the scullery, with the soapy water dripping from him, dithering with cold.
“Oh, my sirs!” he said. “Wheer's my towel?”
It was hung on a chair to warm before the fire, otherwise he would have bullied and blustered. He squatted on his heels before the hot baking-fire to dry himself.
“F-ff-f!” he went, pretending to shudder with cold.
“Goodness, man, don't be such a kid!” said Mrs. Morel. “It's NOT cold.”
“Thee strip thysen stark nak'd to wesh thy flesh i' that scullery,” said the miner, as he rubbed his hair; “nowt b'r a ice-'ouse!”
“And I shouldn't make that fuss,” replied his wife.
“No, tha'd drop down stiff, as dead as a door-knob, wi' thy nesh sides.”
“Why is a door-knob deader than anything else?” asked Paul, curious.
“Eh, I dunno; that's what they say,” replied his father. “But there's that much draught i' yon scullery, as it blows through your ribs like through a five-barred gate.”
“It would have some difficulty in blowing through yours,” said Mrs. Morel.
Morel looked down ruefully at his sides.
“Me!” he exclaimed. “I'm nowt b'r a skinned rabbit. My bones fair juts out on me.”
“I should like to know where,” retorted his wife.
“Iv'ry-wheer! I'm nobbut a sack o' faggots.”
Mrs. Morel laughed. He had still a wonderfully young body, muscular, without any fat. His skin was smooth and clear. It might have been the body of a man of twenty-eight, except that there were, perhaps, too many blue scars, like tattoo-marks, where the coal-dust remained under the skin, and that his chest was too hairy. But he put his hand on his side ruefully. It was his fixed belief that, because he did not get fat, he was as thin as a starved rat. Paul looked at his father's thick, brownish hands all scarred, with broken nails, rubbing the fine smoothness of his sides, and the incongruity struck him. It seemed strange they were the same flesh.
“I suppose,” he said to his father, “you had a good figure once.”
“Eh!” exclaimed the miner, glancing round, startled and timid, like a child.
“He had,” exclaimed Mrs. Morel, “if he didn't hurtle himself up as if he was trying to get in the smallest space he could.”
“Me!” exclaimed Morel—“me a good figure! I wor niver much more n'r a skeleton.”
“Man!” cried his wife, “don't be such a pulamiter!”
“'Strewth!” he said. “Tha's niver knowed me but what I looked as if I wor goin' off in a rapid decline.”
She sat and laughed.
“You've had a constitution like iron,” she said; “and never a man had a better start, if it was body that counted. You should have seen him as a young man,” she cried suddenly to Paul, drawing herself up to imitate her husband's once handsome bearing.
Morel watched her shyly. He saw again the passion she had had for him. It blazed upon her for a moment. He was shy, rather scared, and humble. Yet again he felt his old glow. And then immediately he felt the ruin he had made during these years. He wanted to bustle about, to run away from it.
“Gi'e my back a bit of a wesh,” he asked her.
His wife brought a well-soaped flannel and clapped it on his shoulders. He gave a jump.
“Eh, tha mucky little 'ussy!” he cried. “Cowd as death!”
“You ought to have been a salamander,” she laughed, washing his back. It was very rarely she would do anything so personal for him. The children did those things.
“The next world won't be half hot enough for you,” she added.
“No,” he said; “tha'lt see as it's draughty for me.”
But she had finished. She wiped him in a desultory fashion, and went upstairs, returning immediately with his shifting-trousers. When he was dried he struggled into his shirt. Then, ruddy and shiny, with hair on end, and his flannelette shirt hanging over his pit-trousers, he stood warming the garments he was going to put on. He turned them, he pulled them inside out, he scorched them.
“Goodness, man!” cried Mrs. Morel, “get dressed!”
“Should thee like to clap thysen into britches as cowd as a tub o' water?” he said.
At last he took off his pit-trousers and donned decent black. He did all this on the hearthrug, as he would have done if Annie and her familiar friends had been present.
Mrs. Morel turned the bread in the oven. Then from the red earthenware panchion of dough that stood in a corner she took another handful