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‘All right, Mother. Why didn’t you call me sooner?’ grumbled the lad.
‘I didn’t wake myself. I didn’t go to sleep till morning, and then I slept.’
She went downstairs. Siegmund listened for his son to get out of bed. The minutes passed.
‘The young donkey, why doesn’t he get out?’ said Siegmund angrily to himself. He turned over, pressing himself upon the bed in anger and humiliation, because now he had no authority to call to his son and keep him to his duty. Siegmund waited, writhing with anger, shame, and anxiety. When the suave, velvety ‘Pan-n-n! pan-n-n-n!’ of the clock was heard striking, Frank stepped with a thud on to the floor. He could be heard dressing in clumsy haste. Beatrice called from the bottom of the stairs:
‘Do you want any hot water?’
‘You know there isn’t time for me to shave now,’ answered her son, lifting his voice to a kind of broken falsetto.
The scent of the cooking of bacon filled the house. Siegmund heard his second daughter, Marjory, aged nine, talking to Vera, who occupied the same room with her. The child was evidently questioning, and the elder girl answered briefly. There was a lull in the household noises, broken suddenly by Marjory, shouting from the top of the stairs:
‘Mam!’ She wailed. ‘Mam!’ Still Beatrice did not hear her. ‘Mam! Mamma!’ Beatrice was in the scullery. ‘Mamma-a!’ The child was getting impatient. She lifted her voice and shouted: ‘Mam? Mamma!’ Still no answer. ‘Mam-mee-e!’ she squealed.
Siegmund could hardly contain himself.
‘Why don’t you go down and ask?’ Vera called crossly from the bedroom.
And at the same moment Beatrice answered, also crossly: ‘What do you want?’
‘Where’s my stockings?’ cried the child at the top of her voice.
‘Why do you ask me? Are they down here?’ replied her mother. ‘What are you shouting for?’
The child plodded downstairs. Directly she returned, and as she passed into Vera’s room, she grumbled: ‘And now they’re not mended.’
Siegmund heard a sound that made his heart beat. It was the crackling of the sides of the crib, as Gwen, his little girl of five, climbed out. She was silent for a space. He imagined her sitting on the white rug and pulling on her stockings. Then there came the quick little thud of her feet as she went downstairs.
‘Mam,’ Siegmund heard her say as she went down the hall, ‘has dad come?’
The answer and the child’s further talk were lost in the distance of the kitchen. The small, anxious question, and the quick thudding of Gwen’s feet, made Siegmund lie still with torture. He wanted to hear no more. He lay shrinking within himself. It seemed that his soul was sensitive to madness. He felt that he could not, come what might, get up and meet them all.
The front door banged, and he heard Frank’s hasty call: ‘Good-bye!’ Evidently the lad was in an ill-humour. Siegmund listened for the sound of the train; it seemed an age; the boy would catch it. Then the water from the wash-hand bowl in the bathroom ran loudly out. That, he suggested, was Vera, who was evidently not going up to town. At the thought of this, Siegmund almost hated her. He listened for her to go downstairs. It was nine o’clock.
The footsteps of Beatrice came upstairs. She put something down in the bathroom — his hot water. Siegmund listened intently for her to come to his door. Would she speak? She approached hurriedly, knocked, and waited. Siegmund, startled, for the moment, could not answer. She knocked loudly.
‘All right,’ said he.
Then she went downstairs.
He lay probing and torturing himself for another half-hour, till Vera’s voice said coldly, beneath his window outside:
‘You should clear away, then. We don’t want the breakfast things on the table for a week.’
Siegmund’s heart set hard. He rose, with a shut mouth, and went across to the bathroom. There he started. The quaint figure of Gwen stood at the bowl, her back was towards him; she was sponging her face gingerly. Her hair, all blowsed from the pillow, was tied in a stiff little pigtail, standing out from her slender, childish neck. Her arms were bare to the shoulder. She wore a bodiced petticoat of pink flannelette, which hardly reached her knees. Siegmund felt slightly amused to see her stout little calves planted so firmly close together. She carefully sponged her cheeks, her pursed-up mouth, and her neck, soaping her hair, but not her ears. Then, very deliberately, she squeezed out the sponge and proceeded to wipe away the soap.
For some reason or other she glanced round. Her startled eyes met his. She, too, had beautiful dark blue eyes. She stood, with the sponge at her neck, looking full at him. Siegmund felt himself shrinking. The child’s look was steady, calm, inscrutable.
‘Hello!’ said her father. ‘Are you here!’
The child, without altering her expression in the slightest, turned her back on him, and continued wiping her neck. She dropped the sponge in the water and took the towel from off the side of the bath. Then she turned to look again at Siegmund, who stood in his pyjamas before her, his mouth shut hard, but his eyes shrinking and tender. She seemed to be trying to discover something in him.
‘Have you washed your ears?’ he said gaily.
She paid no heed to this, except that he noticed her face now wore a slight constrained smile as she looked at him. She was shy. Still she continued to regard him curiously.
‘There is some chocolate on my dressing-table,’ he said.
‘Where have you been to?’ she asked suddenly.
‘To the seaside,’ he answered, smiling.
‘To Brighton?’ she asked. Her tone was still condemning.
‘Much farther than that,’ he replied.
‘To Worthing?’ she asked.
‘Farther — in a steamer,’ he replied.
‘But who did you go with?’ asked the child.
‘Why, I went all by myself,’ he answered.
‘Twuly?’ she asked.
‘Weally and twuly,’ he answered, laughing.
‘Couldn’t you take me?’ she asked.
‘I will next time,’ he replied.
The child still looked at him, unsatisfied.
‘But what did you go for?’ she asked, goading him suspiciously.
‘To see the sea and the ships and the fighting ships with cannons —’
‘You might have taken me,’ said the child reproachfully.
‘Yes, I ought to have done, oughtn’t I?’ he said, as if regretful.
Gwen still looked full at him.
‘You are red,’ she said.
He glanced quickly in the glass, and replied:
‘That is the sun. Hasn’t it been hot?’
‘Mm! It made my nose all peel. Vera said she would scrape me like a new potato.’ The child laughed and turned shyly away.
‘Come here,’ said Siegmund. ‘I believe you’ve got a tooth out, haven’t you?’
He was very cautious and gentle. The child drew back. He hesitated, and she drew away from him, unwilling.
‘Come and let me look,’ he repeated.
She drew farther away, and the same constrained smile appeared on her face, shy, suspicious, condemning.
‘Aren’t you going to get your chocolate?’ he asked,