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Forestier.”
Madame de Marelle shuddered all over, and remained silent, so deep in thought that she seemed to have forgotten that he was at her feet. And two transparent drops kept continually forming in her eyes, falling and forming again.
She rose. Duroy guessed that she was going away without saying a word, without reproach or forgiveness, and he felt hurt and humiliated to the bottom of his soul. Wishing to stay her, he threw his arms about the skirt of her dress, clasping through the stuff her rounded legs, which he felt stiffen in resistance. He implored her, saying: “I beg of you, do not go away like that.”
Then she looked down on him from above with that moistened and despairing eye, at once so charming and so sad, which shows all the grief of a woman’s heart, and gasped out: “I — I have nothing to say. I have nothing to do with it. You — you are right. You — you have chosen well.”
And, freeing herself by a backward movement, she left the room without his trying to detain her further.
Left to himself, he rose as bewildered as if he had received a blow on the head. Then, making up his mind, he muttered: “Well, so much the worse or the better. It is over, and without a scene; I prefer that,” and relieved from an immense weight, suddenly feeling himself free, delivered, at ease as to his future life, he began to spar at the wall, hitting out with his fists in a kind of intoxication of strength and triumph, as if he had been fighting Fate.
When Madame Forestier asked: “Have you told Madame de Marelle?” he quietly answered, “Yes.”
She scanned him closely with her bright eyes, saying: “And did it not cause her any emotion?”
“No, not at all. She thought it, on the contrary, a very good idea.”
The news was soon known. Some were astonished, others asserted that they had foreseen it; others, again, smiled, and let it be understood that they were not surprised.
The young man who now signed his descriptive articles D. de Cantel, his “Echoes” Duroy, and the political articles which he was beginning to write from time to time Du Roy, passed half his time with his betrothed, who treated him with a fraternal familiarity into which, however, entered a real but hidden love, a species of desire concealed as a weakness. She had decided that the marriage should be quite private, only the witnesses being present, and that they should leave the same evening for Rouen. They would go the next day to see the journalist’s parents, and remain with them some days. Duroy had striven to get her to renounce this project, but not having been able to do so, had ended by giving in to it.
So the tenth of May having come, the newly-married couple, having considered the religious ceremony useless since they had not invited anyone, returned to finish packing their boxes after a brief visit to the Town Hall. They took, at the Saint Lazare terminus, the six o’clock train, which bore them away towards Normandy. They had scarcely exchanged twenty words up to the time that they found themselves alone in the railway carriage. As soon as they felt themselves under way, they looked at one another and began to laugh, to hide a certain feeling of awkwardness which they did not want to manifest.
The train slowly passed through the long station of Batignolles, and then crossed the mangy-looking plain extending from the fortifications to the Seine. Duroy and his wife from time to time made a few idle remarks, and then turned again towards the windows. When they crossed the bridge of Asniéres, a feeling of greater liveliness was aroused in them at the sight of the river covered with boats, fishermen, and oarsmen. The sun, a bright May sun, shed its slanting rays upon the craft and upon the smooth stream, which seemed motionless, without current or eddy, checked, as it were, beneath the heat and brightness of the declining day. A sailing boat in the middle of the river having spread two large triangular sails of snowy canvas, wing and wing, to catch the faintest puffs of wind, looked like an immense bird preparing to take flight.
Duroy murmured: “I adore the neighborhood of Paris. I have memories of dinners which I reckon among the pleasantest in my life.”
“And the boats,” she replied. “How nice it is to glide along at sunset.”
Then they became silent, as though afraid to continue their outpourings as to their past life, and remained so, already enjoying, perhaps, the poesy of regret.
Duroy, seated face to face with his wife, took her hand and slowly kissed it. “When we get back again,” said he, “we will go and dine sometimes at Chatou.”
She murmured: “We shall have so many things to do,” in a tone of voice that seemed to imply, “The agreeable must be sacrificed to the useful.”
He still held her hand, asking himself with some uneasiness by what transition he should reach the caressing stage. He would not have felt uneasy in the same way in presence of the ignorance of a young girl, but the lively and artful intelligence he felt existed in Madeleine, rendered his attitude an embarrassed one. He was afraid of appearing stupid to her, too timid or too brutal, too slow or too prompt. He kept pressing her hand gently, without her making any response to this appeal. At length he said: “It seems to me very funny for you to be my wife.”
She seemed surprised as she said: “Why so?”
“I do not know. It seems strange to me. I want to kiss you, and I feel astonished at having the right to do so.”
She calmly held out her cheek to him, which he kissed as he would have kissed that of a sister.
He continued: “The first time I saw you — you remember the dinner Forestier invited me to — I thought, ‘Hang it all, if I could only find a wife like that.’ Well, it’s done. I have one.”
She said, in a low tone: “That is very nice,” and looked him straight in the face, shrewdly, and with smiling eyes.
He reflected, “I am too cold. I am stupid. I ought to get along quicker than this,” and asked: “How did you make Forestier’s acquaintance?”
She replied, with provoking archness: “Are we going to Rouen to talk about him?”
He reddened, saying: “I am a fool. But you frighten me a great deal.”
She was delighted, saying: “I — impossible! How is it?”
He had seated himself close beside her. She suddenly exclaimed: “Oh! a stag.”
The train was passing through the forest of Saint Germaine, and she had seen a frightened deer clear one of the paths at a bound. Duroy, leaning forward as she looked out of the open window, printed a long kiss, a lover’s kiss, among the hair on her neck. She remained still for a few seconds, and then, raising her head, said: “You are tickling me. Leave off.”
But he would not go away, but kept on pressing his curly moustache against her white skin in a long and thrilling caress.
She shook herself, saying: “Do leave off.”
He had taken her head in his right hand, passed around her, and turned it towards him. Then he darted on her mouth like a hawk on its prey. She struggled, repulsed him, tried to free herself. She succeeded at last, and repeated: “Do leave off.”
He remained seated, very red and chilled by this sensible remark; then, having recovered more self-possession, he said, with some liveliness: “Very well, I will wait, but I shan’t be able to say a dozen words till we get to Rouen. And remember that we are only passing through Poissy.”
“I will do the talking then,” she said, and sat down quietly beside him.
She spoke with precision of what they would do on their return. They must keep on the suite of apartments that she had resided in with her first husband, and Duroy would also inherit the duties and salary of Forestier at the Vie Francaise. Before their union, besides, she had planned out, with the certainty of a man of business, all the financial details of their household. They had married under a settlement preserving to each of them their respective estates, and every incident that might arise — death, divorce, the birth of one or more children —