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have you heard about the Suarez book? Have you talked to the Richardson family about it yet? I presume they know? Bet they do.’
‘I haven’t talked to them,’ Suki said, ‘but they’ll know. They always know everything.’
That she knew for a fact.
By the time they got to Box House Publishing – another monolith of sheeny glass – Suki had drunk two coffees, plastered a nicotine patch on her arm in lieu of cigarettes, and taken another half Zanax. She was feeling no pain and the face she examined in her compact mirror was looking good. Tranquillizer-induced good, she knew, but that was fine. Who cared where the relief came from, right? She raked her blonde hair back from the widow’s peak in place of combing it, and applied more eyeliner and fire-truck red gloss.
‘Is Suarez interested in the Jethro years?’ Melissa asked as they went up in the elevator.
‘Not sure,’ said Suki, unconcerned in her happy bubble. ‘Not yet, anyhow. Jethro’s people would have the lawyers on to him like a shot. It’s always hard to nail down facts with bands like TradeWind. The tabloid rumours are so wild, nobody cares what another biography would say. Jethro never speaks, never denies, never apologizes.’
She knew that from personal experience. When Jethro had moved on, she’d never heard from him again, despite their having shared a bed for more than two years.
Today’s meeting was with her editor, the marketing team and the cover department. They were all at least fifteen years younger than Suki and Melissa, but Suki tried to tell herself she didn’t care. When she’d started out as a writer, these kids were still in strollers. How could they know what she stood for with their talk of modern covers and what people wanted?
It turned out that they had heard about the Suarez book and everyone was pretty perky at the prospect.
‘It’s what people want to read, the inside story,’ breathed one particularly young girl in opaque pantyhose and a skirt so short she’d have been told she was ‘asking for it’ when Suki was young.
Suki had railed against the ‘asking for it’ mantra all her life. Women should be able to wear what they want, be what they want. But as she’d found to her cost, it hadn’t quite worked out that way. When you looked like you were asking for it, you sometimes got it – and that had the potential to destroy you.
Decades on, female politicians were still criticized for what they wore, though nobody would do that to male ones. Yet here were these young women with careers wearing clothes that seemed to say ‘one more inch and you’re at my crotch’.
Suki shook her head to rattle these crazy thoughts out of it and tuned back in. They’d moved on to the subject of e-books, blogging tours and the fact that Suki’s interesting past made her a person of interest to both the books and feature pages.
She continued to intermittently tune in and out until the meeting came to an end. Still in a Zanax-induced daze, she made her way back down to street level. On her way to hail a cab, she passed a gaggle of young girls wearing what looked to her like fancy dress costume: dark pantyhose, tight denim shorts, unflattering sneaker boots, long open shirts and skimpy stomach-baring T-shirts with writing on them. The clothes were not revealing as such, but they did, Suki realized, highlight the female body. Some guys laying cable watched the girls and Suki watched the men. She had never worn clothes like that when she was their age, but the body-conscious dresses and high boots she’d dressed in back then were designed to achieve the same result.
After the no-nonsense style of Melissa, who’d made such a statement, Suki felt almost shocked by the girls. And she was unshockable, wasn’t she?
In Women and Their Wars she’d written about female empowerment and the glass ceiling. At the time, it had been a hot topic. Not any more. Though the glass ceiling remained, no one seemed interested. Feminist writers had devoted entire books to topics such as body image, sexuality, the power of motherhood – and what difference had it made?
Young girls still chose clothes that would make men want to sleep with them. Older women wanted to have both a career and babies. Women of all ages wanted to look attractive to the opposite sex and not show any sign of growing old, ever. Nothing had changed at all.
Suki held out a hand to hail a passing cab. When it drew up, she saw her own image reflected in the windows: a woman with a nest of tousled blonde hair and full lips stained with red gloss. The perfect image of wanton sexuality.
In the back of the cab, she wiped the excess red off with a tissue.
The plane was delayed and she had to wait an hour at the gate with nothing to read but notes of the meetings and a magazine she’d bought that morning. She liked the empowering stuff and snippets about mindfulness or meditation. She didn’t do any of it; so far as Suki was concerned, reading about it was enough. The articles calmed her, as if the information was seeping into her bones.
One day, she promised herself, she would give this stuff a try. Maybe when the book came out and she had some money. Perhaps then she’d go to Avalon and spend time with Zach and Kitty. They were growing up and she was missing so much of it. She’d been close to Zach when he was younger: he’d been so sweet, so wise, despite being a kid. Suki had felt the warmth of both Tess and their father’s kindness in the boy and she’d adored being with him.
But she hadn’t been home for a long time. There were phone calls at Christmas and birthdays, but she knew he was slipping away from her. Once kids grew up, they moved on. She didn’t want to lose him. She still had time with Kitty because she was young.
Yes, when her book was done, assuming she managed to dodge the bullet with the bloody Suarez book, she’d go to Avalon and move in with Tess for a while. Practise yoga and mindfulness, meditate on the beach, stuff like that. She smiled at the thought.
Another delay announcement was broadcast, so she phoned Mick, who sounded grumpy when she told him that she was going to be home late.
‘Why don’t you go out for a session with Renaud?’ she suggested, like a mother suggesting a new toy to an irate toddler. Easier to have him sinking a few beers than waiting for her and getting annoyed.
‘I guess I could do that.’
The after-effects of the drugs and the energy she’d had to summon up for the day, had left her feeling exhausted. Suki kept her bag protectively close on her lap, wrapped a light shawl around her shoulders and let herself sink into the airline gate seat as far as its hard back would allow.
Jethro and the band had their own jet. There was no hanging around boarding gates when you were travelling with TradeWind. Her mind went back once more to that first time she’d met Jethro, that instant connection on the television show and then that kiss in his dressing room, after he’d thrown everyone else out, his hands holding her face so tenderly.
His music wasn’t the only lure for the fans; Jethro’s looks were a huge part of the appeal. Tall, almost menacing in his beauty, except for that wry, crooked smile; the jet black hair swept back from his forehead, and the Sioux bones he’d inherited from his mother defining the tanned face. He was so fiercely stunning that Suki had wanted to touch his face to see if he was real or if clever make-up had created those incredible shadows and high bones. But he wouldn’t let her touch him.
His was the only touch allowed. His hands on her body, feeling for her breasts under the silk shirt, making her not care who was on the other side of the dressing-room door or what they might think. Just wanting him.
‘No,’ he rasped, face buried in her breasts. ‘Not here – my hotel.’
‘I thought you had to fly to another gig?’ she said breathlessly, watching as he grabbed his jacket from a chair, checked the pockets for his smokes and took her hand.
But the jet could wait. There was time to go back to his hotel before they had to race off to Pittsburgh.
As they left the television studios, Suki felt the exquisite buzz of being with a man everyone recognized, a rock god at