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to torture you with questions:
«To whom, by whom, what for and why?»
Afraid to even seem indifferent
Or when the others seem detached…
And shyly wait at the reception,
Although no chances seem to match…
Afraid of an invented fear
Though one day it will fade away…
Afraid that my last shirt I give you
Would never fit you anyway…
Afraid to lose and not recall
The memory of your sweetest arms
And that I give this huge whole world
To the possession of your charms!
Afraid that I might leave unnamed
Or be unable to find out
The names of all the feelings tamed
To know what they are all about…
I'm not afraid of reassurance
But I'm afraid I cannot take
The things I leave without regretting
And leave it for my enemy's sake…
Afraid to miss the very meaning,
Afraid of taking the wrong turn;
That there will be no more pages
Behind the page that has been torn…
Afraid to suffer and dissemble
Afraid to be afraid of heights;
Afraid to part with dreams and tremble
That I will never see them bright…
Afraid to insult by not listening,
Afraid to be afraid to die…
Of the desire close to hatred!
Of seeing when I close my eyes…
Afraid to leave without returning
Afraid to stumble and to blame…
Afraid to fall asleep forever…
Afraid to be completely tame!..
I finally agreed with the publisher!!!
I think that the collection will be ready for our 33rd anniversary!
Taska will be surprised!)))
Chapter 5
Numerology… Or Number Twenty Three
April 23, 2018.
Monday.
At first I had a dream…
In this dream, the smell of coffee drove me mad!
The smell of coffee and flowers…
I opened my eyes. My God!
On the floor, in a vase, I saw the most delicate cream roses.
Nearby there was a huge polar bear and Igor, pleased:
«Coffee is in the kitchen, my girl. Happy Birthday, goldfish!!!» He kissed me on the forehead as if I was a little girl and stroked my right cheek. It was so nice. I even closed my eyes and answered:
«You're adorable! Really…»
I involuntarily reached out, and he grabbed me, picked me up and carried to the kitchen in his arms…
Stepan and Daniel with their painted cards were waiting for me there! They wrapped their arms around my legs and pressed themselves against me.
Lord, how touching it is!
Today I took a day off.
We decided to postpone the birthday, or rather its celebration, for Saturday.
After all, it's such a date!
33…)))
Hooray!
Or not hooray!..
We will definitely not arrange it at home. Igor and I will go to a restaurant. No! We'll take the boys with us.
We'll dress up like it's a red carpet!
I want this day to be remembered…
Today, at about eleven, my father called.
He was worried as he spoke. He said he was very sorry that he could not be near. It seemed to me that he was already ready to burst into tears when Taska grabbed the phone and said that dad asked her to come… He didn't feel well lately…
I took a promise from her to tell me about everything she would notice. Maybe I would need to fly to my father myself. Although he promised me that if he was okay, he would definitely come to see his grandchildren and simply get away.
My father did not take vacations for many years, and now he said he was very tired.
Then I even burst into tears.
Daddy, what kind of fools you and mom were!
Igor took the boys to school and went to work, saying he would be late, since he had classes with third-year students and an autopsy…
Again I stumbled upon Taska's book. She gave it to me when she went by to St. Petersburg for a couple of days on her way to Amsterdam and Hanover.
The book was written by some great Australian numerologist.
Yeah!
David Phillips…
For three hours I was dealing with our numbers and arrows.
That's interesting!
I tried to calculate my control number:
04/23/1985 = 4 + 2 + 3 + 1+9 + 8 + 5 = 32!
It turned out to be the opposite of 23[7]…
Then: 3 + 2 = 5.
The control number is 5.
And if you add the numbers of our year of birth:
1 + 9 + 8 + 5 = 23!!!
(Again!)
Then I wrote out a description of people whose control number was 5:
«Most of these people have a hard time working on a fixed schedule. If they are still forced to do this, they always see this as the fault of their boss and, as a result, suffer from illnesses caused by stress. They should find work that would allow… becoming a freelance writer or artist…»
And this one is exactly about Taska:
«…Many of them have a strong craving for adventure and willingly go on trips…
Impressions from travels and past experiences, acquired with wisdom and awareness, may turn out to be the most valuable ways to achieve freedom and enlightenment…»
«…The main driving force in everything they do is love for people…»
How is that?
I don't know how, but this author knows exactly what he is writing about!
I tried to draw personality arrows…
Looks like a tic-tac-toe!)))
Phew!
Everything's all right here!
We've got at least two arrows:
ARROWS OF EMOTIONAL EQUILIBRIUM: 2-5-8
«… The balanced sensitivity of people with this Arrow helps them understand the needs and attitudes of others. This ability can be perfectly used in work related to counseling and treatment…»
ARROWS OF DECISION: 9-5-1
«…Decisiveness underlies all the actions of these people…
One
Number 23 is credited with magical features. According to numerologists. it often accompanies mystical events and the end of ordinary phenomena.
It is also associated with the number 5 (2 + 3), which in numerology symbolizes risk, lack of stability, unpredictability, desire to get away from routine. Famous number researchers include William Burroughs, Robert Anton Wilson and others.
Those interested in the number 23 try to celebrate its appearance in ordinary life.
They often analyze both historical events and the lives of prominent people, as well as everyday routines to provide evidence of the unusualness of this number. Moreover, if they do not find the number directly, they add up the numbers, or digits in the numbers using the numerological technique until they get 23, for example:
♦ The prime number 23 is formed by the first two prime numbers 2 and 3 in the row, that is, the first even and first odd numbers in the natural series.
♦ There are 23 letters in the Latin alphabet.
♦ Euclidean geometry is built on 23 axioms.
♦ The symbol of vanadium, the 23rd element of the periodic table is V (that is, Roman 5, in other words 2 + 3).
♦ The cycle of physical biorhythms of a person lasts 23 days. According to the tantriks, sexual cycle of men lasts the same.
♦ There are 23 joints in the human hand.
♦ A person has 23 pairs of chromosomes.
♦ In the spiral of genetic «instructions» of DNA, inexplicable «failures» – irregularities in the structure – appear every 23 angstroms.
♦ The full cycle of blood circulation, that is, the time during which the blood runs through the entire human body, is 23 seconds.
♦ The Great Patriotic War lasted exactly 1,418 days, which is: 1 + 4 + 1 + 8 = 14; 1 + 4 = 5; 5 = 2 + 3. Or 1 + 4 + 18 = 23, 14 + 1 + 8 = 23, 14 + 18 = 32, the opposite of 23.
♦ Titanic, the largest ship of its time recognized as unsinkable, with a displacement of 46 (2x23) thousand tons, sank due to a collision with an iceberg that occurred at 23:40 on April 14, 1912. (04/14/1912) 4 + 1+4+1+ 9 + 1 + 2 = 22. It was his first and last journey. 22 + 1 = 23. On board the ship there were 2207 passengers (2 + 2 + 7 = 11), of which only 705 (7 + 5 = 12) survived the disaster. 11 + 12 = 23.
♦ John Dillinger robbed 26 banks, but took the money only in 23 of them. He was shot dead at the Chicago Theater, located at 2323 Clark Street. Another crime star, Arthur Flengenheimer, better known as German Schulz, died on October 23, 1935. A year before his death, Schultz paid for the contract killing of a rival competitor Call named the Raging Dog, who was shot dead at the age of 23. On the day of Schulz's death, Crompierre, Harlem's king of criminals, was wounded and at the time of his arrest told the police a cryptic phrase: «It seems to be one of those coincidences.» Schultz's killer, Charlie Workman, served his sentence for 23 years, after which he was released on probation.
♦ Each 23rd coastal wave is twice the size of the average wave.
♦ The Earth's axis makes a full circle in about 23 thousand Earth years, and its inclination relative to the plane of rotation of the planet is slightly more than 23 degrees.
♦ Researchers of asteroids note that the minimum period of rotation of an asteroid around its own axis should be 2.3 hours – otherwise a small planet is simply torn apart.
♦ The fire at the recently flooded Mir-23 space station, from which the problems of the Russian spacecraft began, occurred on February 23, 1997. The fire destroyed 23 oxygen tanks. It wasn't better with Soviet space exploration: the first Soyuz spacecraft was launched on April 23, 1967, and on September 23 of the same year transferred the first photographs of the Earth to the International Space Station. The first orbital station was launched on April 23, 1971.
♦ For many years, the largest number of meetings between people and aliens were reported on April 23, and the number of «aliens» who sowed the spores of life on planet Earth, according to ufologists, was 23…