The Ones We Trust. Kimberly BelleЧитать онлайн книгу.
sense coming. “That Chelsea woman really did a number on you, didn’t she?”
My breath leaves me in a loud whoosh, and I blink away a sudden burning in the corners of my eyes. I wish I’d grabbed my sunglasses from the center console of my car to hide behind, to protect me from Jean’s superhuman scrutiny. It’s an uncomfortable thing, being seen so clearly by a virtual stranger, one who seems to know the skeleton I’ve tucked away in the back of my closet, knows that much like her son, I cling to my guilt like a life buoy, too. Beating myself up for what happened feels so much easier than actually forgiving myself, or asking for others’ forgiveness.
“Yes,” I say, looking away. “She did.”
“I want to tell the world about Zach. I want to tell his story. And I want you to help me.”
And there it is, I think, the hook. Jean got me so distracted, so flustered and discombobulated with her Chelsea questions that I didn’t even feel it slide into my side. Or maybe it’s more than that. Maybe after stumbling on Ricky, my curiosity has come alive. Maybe Jean’s hook simply doesn’t hurt as much as I thought it would.
“Why me?”
Jean smiles, not unkindly. “Because of all the things we’ve already talked about. Your connections with the army. Your experience with Chelsea. Both those things will make you very careful with your words, with how you choose to frame Zach’s story.”
“I haven’t agreed to frame any story.”
“What if I told you I plan to find Ricky?”
“I would say I have absolutely no doubt you will. But that doesn’t change my answer.”
“Actually, dear, you haven’t told me your answer.”
I open my mouth to say no. Helping Jean write Zach’s story isn’t just sticking a toe into the early-spring sunshine. It’s stepping into the sun at high noon, without clothes or blankets to keep me warm, without SPF or shades to protect myself from the sun’s harsh glare.
And yet I find myself considering the possibilities.
Because all those things that made me want to become a journalist are still there, have always been there, lurking just under the surface. Discipline and determination and temerity and a curiosity that, as evidenced by the very fact that I’m still sitting here, on a chair in Jean’s sunny backyard, just won’t stop.
But do I have the courage to try again, to trust myself not to make the same mistake I made with Chelsea all over again this time around, with Jean? That my words will not do someone harm?
Then again, they wouldn’t be my words, would they? They’d be Jean’s.
So how could any words poison her or her family, when essentially what she’s asking is for me to help her write hers? How would helping Jean be any different from what I’m doing now, with health care? The content would be all hers. I would just be curating it.
Jean reaches across the ferns, wraps her bony fingers around mine. “At least tell me you’ll think about it, will you?”
Before I can stop myself, before I know that I even intended to speak, I find myself saying to Jean, “I will.”
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