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from her throat.
He reached down to unbutton his trouser falls and free his cock. He slid the thick, hard shaft up and down her sex, grinding and rubbing against her until she was wet for him. Then he backed off to pump his hand over his length, slicking himself with her essence. With his hips, he spread her thighs wide and positioned the head of his cock at her entrance.
“Alex, please. Let me have you. Take me in.”
“Chase, wait.”
“I want you,” he murmured. “I need this. To be inside you, make you mine.”
Mine.
Once he’d spoken the word, it echoed in his every heartbeat.
Mine. Mine. Mine.
She put her hands on his shoulders and pushed him away. “I know you don’t want this. Not really.”
“The hell I don’t.” He thrust his erection against her thigh, offering her ample proof.
“That’s not what I mean. I know how you feel about intercourse. Or fucking, if you want to call it that.”
“I don’t want to call it that.” Not now, not with her. He pulled away from her, breathing hard.
“You always do this. Let your body take the lead when you want to hide your heart. Right now, you’re hurting. I don’t want to take advantage of you.”
“You think you could take advantage of me.” He chuckled. “Well, aren’t you precious.”
“Well, aren’t you patronizing.” She stood up, pulling down the hem of her shift and dressing gown. “Good night, Chase.”
She left the room.
Chase let his head fall backward on the divan and stared up at the ceiling. She was wise to pull away, but wrong about who’d be taking advantage of whom. He would have been using her. Not in the same way he used his other lovers, but using her just the same. Pushing her to accept him, redeem him. Cover up all the sins and flaws he didn’t want to face deep within himself.
God damn his eyes.
He needed to leave. Get out of this house, remind himself of who he was—before he hurt her in some irretrievable way.
Fortunately, Chase knew just the place.
A week spent in Hertfordshire was guaranteed to quash even the mildest erotic desires or romantic longings. At least, Chase had counted on it working that way for him. Clearly the local residents managed to persevere in marrying and procreating, but they weren’t lodged at the Belvoir estate. They didn’t spend their days trying to coax details of sheep manure and crop rotation from a skeptical land agent who’d managed the farmland for longer than Chase had been alive. They didn’t spend their nights rattling about in a cavernous, half-empty mansion, followed by the eyes of disappointed ancestors hanging in their portrait frames.
And they didn’t spend a tense hour sitting at the bedside of an aged, brokenhearted man who’d lost his powers of speech and movement but had retained the ability to fix Chase with a watery blue glare that shouted without words: This is your fault.
The neglected pasture, the empty silence, his uncle’s bedridden state and lack of an heir.
This is your fault.
So no. He shouldn’t have thought of Alexandra or the girls at all.
Damn it, his plan had failed miserably. All cursed week long, he’d fought the temptation to go back. It was like Reynaud House anchored one end of a rope, and he’d spent the week tugging at the other end, flexing every last muscle he had in resistance. All he’d earned for his trouble were aches.
Each evening, he fell asleep wishing Alex was nestled beside him.
Each morning, he woke wondering what Millicent had died of today.
During his ride back to London, it grew worse. A raincloud split directly above him, rinsing the sheep dung and dust off his back, and leaving him cold, shivering, and desperate to be home.
And by home, his heart meant with them.
Upon his arrival, Alexandra rushed to him with arms outstretched in welcome. God. He nearly dropped to his knees. The journey had rendered him weary, muddy—shed of all his dutiful intent. If she embraced him, he wasn’t sure where he’d find the strength to resist.
He braced himself, hand on the staircase banister.
Instead of catching him in a hug, however, she circled him, thrusting her hands deep into his pockets with bossy movements. Her hands were full of small, round mysteries, and she stuffed them into every possible place, jabbing him in the ribs and chest.
“Sweetmeats for the girls,” she explained, seeing his baffled expression. “So you don’t return empty-handed.”
He could only stare at her.
“You could have warned me you were leaving,” she chided. “You should have at least warned them. Soothing their feelings wasn’t easy. But I told them they must expect your absence from time to time. You’re a duke’s heir, an important man with duties and so forth.” Once she’d deposited her candies on his person, she stood back and smoothed his lapels. “I taught them a song while you were gone. It’s a sea chantey, but I took out the crudest parts. They’re eager to sing it for you.”
“I don’t want to hear it.”
“Perhaps tomorrow, then.”
“No. Not tomorrow, either. Nor the day after that. I’m not going to applaud their songs, or stuff my pockets with candy and gifts.”
“It’s only a song and some sweetmeats.”
“You know very well it’s more than that.”
Irrational anger built a blaze in his chest. He’d exiled himself for a week to break these ties, only to return and find she’d been undermining him all the while. How dare she lead Rosamund and Daisy to believe they could be a family? If he must hurt them, better it be now than later. The last thing he needed was Alexandra building up their hopes.
Or his hopes, for that matter.
He caught her by the arms. “I have never made Rosamund or Daisy promises. Not one. Now you’ve made them in my stead, setting them up for disappointment. If those girls get their hearts broken—no, when those girls get their hearts broken—it will be your fault, Alexandra. Not mine.”
He expected her to wince. Shrink from him, wounded by his words.
Instead, she tilted her head and surveyed him with curious eyes. “Are you feeling well?”
“I’m fine. And I meant every word I just said.”
“You don’t look well. Your face is rather pale. Are you fatigued from the journey?”
“If I’m exhausted, the journey has little to do with it. I’m bone weary of having this conversation over and over again.”
She pressed the back of her hand to his cheek. “You’re feverish.”
“I am not feverish, for God’s sake.”
Chase supposed his face was flushed with heat. And maybe her face had gone wavy at the edges. Perhaps his iron grip on the banister felt essential if he wished to remain standing. But all those things were entirely due to anger, not illness.
“Chase,” she said tenderly, looping her arm through his. “I think you should go upstairs and lie down. I’ll bring you some tea.”
“Stop fussing over me.” He shook off her arm