Infamous. Jane PorterЧитать онлайн книгу.
“Why?” she asked in an even smaller voice.
He glanced at her, expression blank. “It’s Rye Priven’s birthday.”
Rye Priven was the newest heartthrob in Hollywood, a gorgeous Australian that had just co-starred in a film with Wolf. The film was in the editing stage now and was supposed to be released at Christmas, when all the big Academy Award contenders were released.
“But Rye Priven doesn’t know me—”
“Everyone’s coming as a couple,” Wolf answered roughly. “You’re supposed to be the other half of my couple.”
She ducked her head, stared sightlessly at her cup. She was hating being part of the couple right now. Wolf was so intense. And unpredictable.
“Rye’s hosting the party himself. He’s keeping it low-key,” Wolf added. “I think he’s only invited six friends, so my absence would be conspicuous, particularly as I already told him I’d be there.”
“I’m not saying you shouldn’t go,” she doggedly replied. “It’s just that I don’t feel like it.”
He looked at her over the rim of his coffee as he took another sip. “You don’t like me much, do you?”
“No,” she blurted and then winced at her bluntness.
“Why not?” Wolf paused, waited for an answer. “It’s a shame you can’t be more articulate in naming my faults.”
Alexandra shot him a swift assessing glance, but he didn’t look the least bit injured. “Your morals and values are deplorable. You could be someone truly great, someone … heroic. But instead you just use people. Take advantage of them. I hate it.”
“And you hate me, too.”
“I—” she started to protest but then fell silent. She didn’t want to start lying to him, because then the lies would never end. It was bad enough she’d agreed to do this, but to become as fake as her role? No. She wouldn’t sell out. She couldn’t. “Hate is a strong word,” she conceded. “But I don’t like you and I don’t respect you. You just seem so bored and spoiled and arrogant. Selfish, too.”
“You’re a hard woman, Alexandra Shanahan.”
She suddenly felt her anger start to melt. She didn’t want to be angry, didn’t like feeling angry. “You’re just used to women falling all over you, desperate to impress you, please you. It’s too bad, too, because you’ll never know if people like you for you or because you’re a famous movie star.”
“Or if they like me for my body or my face.”
Alexandra nearly choked on her sip of her now lukewarm coffee. “And that’s exactly why I don’t like you. You’re so incredibly …” she drew a rough breath “… so …”
“Yes?”
“Conceited.”
“Conceited,” he repeated.
“You have so much—you’ve virtually everything—and you don’t even appreciate it.”
“And just what is everything?”
She gestured, her hand sweeping up and down. “This. You. Looks, wealth, fame, intelligence, success. You have it all, you have more than anyone else I know. But do you even feel grateful? Do you even have any idea how blessed you are? I don’t think so.”
“I hired you to play my girlfriend. I’m not paying you to be my conscience.”
“I don’t think you’ve even got a conscience!” Alexandra shrugged. “And you’re right, none of this is my business. Just like who you pick up and take home isn’t my business. Or the number of women you have in a week, that’s not my concern either. You’re free to take women and use them and abuse them, because as long as they give themselves over to you, you’re not doing anything wrong.”
“Right.”
“Wrong!” Alexandra furiously tossed her cup into the trash bin and spun to face him. “Just because women will let you have them doesn’t mean you should take them. Just because women get blinded by your good looks and fame, just because they hope a night of sex will turn into true love, doesn’t mean it’s okay for you to take advantage of them.”
The corner of his mouth lifted. “Maybe I’m not taking advantage of these women. Maybe they’re taking advantage of me. Maybe they know one night of sex is just that, one night of sex, and when they leave me in the morning they leave happy to have had one night with me. They’ve got bragging rights, a chance to talk big—”
“That’s horrible.”
“To you.”
Her hands balled, nails pressing hard against tender skin. “Not just to me but to all women. It’s a lack of respect, a lack of awareness of how women think and feel, of how making love makes them think they’ve fallen in love …”
“You’re sounding as though this is pretty personal.”
Her chest felt hot and tight, too hot and tight. She felt absolutely undone, beyond her own level of self-control. “Women aren’t tissues, to be used and discarded.”
“Have I somehow hurt you, Miss Shanahan?”
She turned away, stared out across the busy lights of the boulevard.
Yes.
Yes. Four years ago, you parked your fancy car and we kissed and made out. And then when I fumbled with your damn trousers and belt buckle, you realized I was inexperienced. You realized I didn’t know how to touch you or give you pleasure and you got rid of me so fast afterward. If I couldn’t give you what you wanted …
Tears filled her eyes and she squeezed her fists against her ribs, pressing hard against her sides, pressing skin to bone. “No,” she whispered. “You’ve done nothing to me.”
“Are you sure? Because it’s almost as though you’ve some personal experience—”
“No.”
“Good. Then you’ll have no objections going to Rye’s party tonight?”
Alexandra reached up and swiped away a tear before it could fall. “You still want me to go?”
“Want?” His shoulders lifted. “I don’t know if it’s want, but you did sign a contract, and regardless of your personal feelings—or even my own—you’ll fulfill the contract.”
“Even if I hate you,” she whispered.
His mouth quirked, eyes dark and granite-hard. “Especially if you hate me. Fewer complications, remember?”
The party that night at Spago was less stressful than she’d feared.
The stylist had dropped off clothes for her to wear—a smart black cocktail dress that was both simple and sexy, very high stiletto heels and a pretty gold charm bracelet that was girlish and fun.
The stylist had shown Alexandra how to pile her hair on top of her head in a messy twist with loose tendrils falling here and there. With small gold studs in her ears and neutral makeup, she looked nothing like the office assistant she was.
Good, she thought, joining Wolf in the car. Because she wasn’t going to be an office assistant or production assistant for long. She was going to learn how to direct. She was going to make movies.
Wolf was driving a different car again tonight. This one was a sleek pewter Ferrari from the ‘60s. Even she could see it was a classic that had been lovingly restored.
“I’ve seen three cars so far,” she said, sliding into the passenger seat. “Are there more?”
Wolf waited for her to buckle her seat belt before driving off. “An entire